Packing....Moving...-.Packing....Moving / Rose
Oh my gosh, honey, packing, moving... packing, moving... packing, moving... packing, moving...  does it ever..... end?!?!?  You were soooo right, I, AM a pack-rat.   What do I NOT save?!?!?  You always said that when we moved it would take twenty forevers to do it.  & once again, You were right!!!  I sure do wish you were here to help with all this.    Man, we got a lot of stuff!!!!!!!  I even miss you complaining about all my junk.  Oh, sweetie, I just miss you so much.  Today, the thing I miss the most, is your hugs.  I would give anything to feel your arms around me!!  Please help God watch over us all.  Especially all 4 of our kids.  They could always use an extra special blessing, because that's what they are to us!!!  Jason, I love you!! Close

Miranda-Jo Madison Murray is 7 years old today!!  / Rose Murray (Miranda's Mommy )

Wow, babe, today is Day 169.  Today I have wished you were here more than ever.  Our baby girl turned 7.  When we first got married we wanted a baby together so bad.  & so we tried fertility medicine.  But not for long, we prayed about it & decided that if God really wants us to have another child He will be the one to give it to us.  Little did we understand the Power of God's hand.  Even after having a partial hysterectomy, God granted our prayer!!  I'll never forget the day we found out we were pregnant.  We lived in Fisk by Mom & Dad.  I had been feeling wierd for a week or so.  & I wanted to take a test, but you said it would just depress us, so not to do it.  Ok, so you went to sleep, because you worked all night, & I went to K-Mart on my way to work & bought a test.  I took it in the bathroom at 1st Midwest Bank.  I freaked out when it came back positive.  So much so, that I practically ran out of the bank & went straight to Carrie's office.    You couldn't sleep & called me at the bank, when they told you I went to the doctor & wouldn't tell them why I had to go, I think deep in your heart you knew.  :)  When I came out of Carrie's office to go to the lab you were standing by my car waiting with the biggest grin on your face.  We didn't know for a fact yet, & you were still so excited.  You spun me in circles.  Almost made me puke.  You went right with me to the lab & when we got the results we both said thank you God & hugged each other.  Remember how you made them give us a copy of the lab report with Positive circled, so people would believe us.  :)  Gosh, Jason, this is so hard to remember without you here.  It really bittersweet.  

You were so sweet during our pregnancies, even to the point of shaving my legs,  Kyle still laughs about that.  When you sang to Miranda in my belly, she would just kick & kick!!  We always called her Joe-Bob!!  I don't remember why, it just stuck.  If anyone who reads this remembers. (Clarissa :)  Refresh my memory please.  

The day I went into labor (4 weeks early) you had a huge test for EMT school.  I couldn't get ahold of anyone, except Clarissa. so being the faithful, loving cousin she is, off we went to the hospital.  Me, Clarissa, & Kyle (who was 7).  They tried to stop my labor, but Miranda was having NO part of it.  I was in labor the entire day.  YUCK!  Finally about 10:30 at night we went into surgery.  Sweetie, I'll never forgot how kind you were to me that night.  Rubbing my hair & telling me how much you love me.  When they first showed us her, I looked at you & you were crying too.  The look on your face will forever be ingrained in my memory & heart!!

Babe, she misses you so much.  She cried herself to sleep last night because she wants you to be at her birthday.  How do I explain Life to her when I don't understand.  Once again, it's just not fair.  Especially for your children.  Jason, please somehow watch over her & keep her safe.  Send her sweet dreams.  She is growing up so fast.  She is absolutely precious sleeping in her new birthday pj's (until she gets so hot she takes them off)  She may look like me, but her heart is all you!!  You are so very precious in my heart!!  I LOVE YOU!! Close

Missing you  / Rose
Jason, life is still unreal.  I know God won't give us any more than we can bear, but I'm thinking I'm real close to the breaking point.  I miss you so much.  Honey, why?  I still don't get it.  I want you to come home so bad.  People still tell me it gets easier, but they don't sleep in your bed.  I need you there too.  Please ask God to send me just a little bit of peace in my heart.  Jason, I love you more than I could ever try to describe.  You are still my world!!!!! Close

Love / Sonia Michalak
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You are very much alive in our Family!!  / Ginger Sager (Cousin)
Jason,

Even though you are gone, your memory burns bright with your family.  The Kids are getting so big, having not seen them in 2 years, it reminds me at how precious life is.  This past weekend was a BLAST with Rose and the Kids and the rest of the family.   You would be sooo PROUD of how Rose is doing!!!  But rest well, cuz,  she is very loved and looked after by the rest of us.  Though it was strange not to get to see you physicallly we felt your presence. Close

July 4th  / Rosemary Sis Of Alvin Cremeans

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Missing you!!!  / Rose Murray

My dear sweet Jason.  We are in the midst of the trip that you have had planned for so long.  Actually I'm in the lobby of a Day's Inn in Evanston, WY.  It's 1:00 in the morning and I actually have access to a computer, so you know me, here I am!!  Jace, you would have absolutely loved this trip.  The kids say that you are on this trip with us.  You are just flying this time instead of riding with us.  I know they are right, but man, this sucks!!!  I want & need you here with us.  I remember how excited you were about going to California.  It's just not right.  It has now been 5 whole months.  But to me, it feels like last week.  My heart hurts so bad and I would give anything to be with you.  If it weren't for our sweet kids.  I sure miss Marissa on this trip.  We've talked on the phone & we told her how beautiful it has been.  Just wait until she gets her prizes :)  I have also talked to three really sweet people in your family along the way.  Your Mama, or course, & of course, Aunt Vicky, & CLARISSA.  She is the bomb.  She calls me every day & lights a candle for me.  I'm very very blessed to have her in our lives!!  Well, babe, I need to get back up to the room, so Barbara can go to sleep.  The kids are asleep, but you know how paranoid I am.  Even though Gramma Ida, Aunt Barbara & Uncle Bobby are in there.  I miss you more than ever.  I love you!!!

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4TH / Nancy Davis

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Collage / Beverly Ribaudo (Connectd by an Angel )

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God Bless  / Sonia Michalak

    Jason  I really have been trying to
 get this to your web sight, I am having
 a tough time I hope this time it will
work your poor wife, I can't tell you how 
many times I have tried to send this to her
Sleep tight sweet angel,The angels
will hover over you to keep you warm
God Bless you and your family
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So proud of Miranda!!  / Rose Murray
Sweetie, I just wanted you to know that Miranda did it!!!  You would be so very proud.  She said the whole verse,  we had to go in Brother Randy's office and shut the door so no-one else could hear.  She was so excited.  I'm so very thankful to you for encouraging our children in their faith.  Jason, I know I was saved before we met, but without you I wouldn't know how to share my faith with our children or the world.  Thank you so much for that gift.  They all sang so pretty tonight.  Miranda had Aunt Vicky & Uncle Kevin leave an empty space for you.  I told her you didn't need a chair, you could see from Heaven but she insisted.  I think Aunt Vicky may be doing a bit better.  Tonight was her first time out & she WASN"T supposed to do that.  She just won't listen.  Ty & Miranda were glad to see them there though.  Nathan & Tabatha came too.  A little girl has a crush on Tyler & kept her arm around him forever during the singing part.  He tried to shrug her arm off, but she was NOT budging.  It was so sweet.  He's so very handsome & charming.  Just like his DADDY!! :)  We have the last day of Bible School tommorrow & as soon as it's over I'm picking up Marissa & heading to Boliver.  Man, I miss Kyle so much.  I can't wait for him to be home.  2 weeks is too long!!  Please help God watch over us & keep us all safe.   I LOVE YOU MURRAY!!!!! Close

So sorry  / Sonia Michalak
I am so sorry to hear about your loss, we are all in this together,so if you need any one of us we will be right by your side. It leaves you with a broken heart that is for sure, I will keep you and Jason in my prayers  God Bless you and your family Matts Mom Close

Vacation Bible School  / Rose Murray
Gosh sweetie, we miss you so much this week.  You always went to VBS at least a couple of days during the week.  & we wish you were here with us this year.  You would be so very proud of you kids.  Guess what your boy Tyler did today?  Remember how we have a verse to memorize every year to receive something special from the pastor?  Well this year the verse is 
              "Run with endurance
                the race that lies before us,
                Keeping our eyes on Jesus,
                the source & perfecter of our faith."
                "Hebrew 12:1"

Tyler recited the whole verse for Brother Randy.  His buddy, Jeff, just helped a little bit.  I am so proud of him.  I told him over & over how proud you are of him.  That's a lot to remember for a 5 year old.  Miranda has it memorized too.  She's just too shy to say it to Brother Randy.  She said she is going to do it tonight at family night for sure.  Either way I'm really proud of her.  I've told her a million times that you are so very proud of her too!!

Jason, we love & miss you so very very much.  Please watch over us & help God keep us safe.

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Jason, I love you!!  / Rose
Sweetie, what we wouldn't give to listen to you play your guitar and sing to us again.  I can still hear you in my mind singing "Forever & Ever, Amen!"  That was supposed to be us!!  I love you!!


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Fly high with the Angels my Sweetie!! I love you!!  / Rose Murray
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Missing You.  / Your Other Mom ~Ida
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WE LOVE & MISS YOU SO VERY VERY MUCH!!!!  / Rose Murray

Thanks Brandy!!!!

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Someone who knows the pain of a tragic loss  / Debi Collins (A new, yet life long fried to Rose )

Hello Jason,

At times, I feel as if I know you, yet in my heart, I believe it's because our son Andrew, has befriended you in Heaven.  Have you watched him pitch a base ball or run the bases yet Jason?  Are you watching out for the younger guys?  I'm sure that Andrew admires you as so many did that were left behind on the tragic night of your accident.  Your wife is a woman of great strength and wisdom.  Her love for our Lord has guided her through each new day, yet I try to explain, some days simply can't be fixed.  On those days, we give in and we cry and sometimes, we even get angry.  But not at God...just angry at our losses and the fact that the future seems to be only a fraction of what our dreams had indicated.  Love your wife and children and let her know, in your own way, that she is still your heart and solemate and that you have trusted her to raise your beautiful children to be strong adults.  And by the way, Marissa is also her daughter.  As a step-mother who lost my only son, I can assure you, the pain is still unbelievable.  Rose loves them all as children who ALL belong to the two of you.  RIP handsome man, gone but oh too soon.  Debi

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